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Wednesday, May 27, 2009

the last spit.

yea, i'll admit it takes some effort. But when it comes to you it might be worth it. Some people have seen or heard what i've done, you might agree I don't deserve it. But with every second I have left, I'll prove to you there is no bet-ter fit. I wanna sit here on her knee, and work it like its an office. No questions of overtime, once i start i'll never stop it -- And no need to pay here, i swear off her employment, I volunteer. Cause the ones before me have done such a horrible job, I wanna make up for each and every slob. Workload by workload, shift her younger days that passed away into somethin even when shes old, ill be sittin at this desk still bold. So she doesnt have to, when she stares at you, but when she stares at me theres somethin more I see, a pair of two worlds where i'd rather be. And oh my gosh I could get lost, trapt, but the sense of where I am is great would be the greatest slap, stay there in my every waking moment until I nap. Happily surrounded by the eyelids, oh what i'd give, if she could look at what ive done but also what i'll do and then forgive. Just a sliver of hope, I hope a sliver dont poke her finger cause im the one who will have to bring her to the hospital and hope that its a messup or scew up of another dope that we've overlooked. Cant be mine, cant let it be the wrong time, hoping its night for the other fools when im tryin to make me and her's day shine. And if im bright enough, maybe i'll get where im tryin to find, the control panel to change the channel to the broadcast, storm comin so ill change my route fast, so many fools runnin from mother nature's wreckage but I wanna be the last of last. Go to her instead of away from her, maybe instead of endin my time here she'll see im chasin her, because shes worth it, a brand new child from the rain storm, i wanna birth it. Cause at the end of the hurricane theres a calm, keep her fears steady, swear Im ready once theyre in my palms, ill be the one scared before long, But fear wont hold me, the courage to not let it control me, I'll do whatever it takes to keep her from keepin her from me.


Monday, April 27, 2009

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If I could show you, you would never leave it
it leave never would you, you show could I If



And god damn she's a hard bitch
Talks at me like I'm the bad dog that got into the garbage.
And by the way, I can see it in your eyes
You're angry with your life, not a stranger to the fight.
I bet you hate every man that you date
And you're probably addicted to all types of escape
You take it out on me that you're all alone.


The sunlight hit me dead in the eye
Like it's mad I gave half the day to last night.


I said I'll make you smile for the simple fact I'm good at it
I'll make you smile just so I can sit and look at it.
Little baby doll, she doesn't know what to say to ya'll
The patience is too short and of course the pride is way too tall
Break it all smash the past like it was made of glass
Ain't no other way to make it last
It hurts to watch Lucy lose the dream
I've had the pleasure of seeing our hero kick and scream
And when she calms down I'll turn the sound down
And put my arms around the little lost and found and I'll tell her that..
And if you let them know that you're vulnerable
Then there ain't no stopping how far they open you slow
I'm a chapter in your text book read me like a checkbook.
She doesn't want to understand why I still come around
She look at the mirror she don't see what I see
She holds no history of how precious she be
Lay your head on my chest, speak of the stress
Kick your feet up and rest, before we clean up the nest
I hate to see you upset it cramps the position
And if you didn't know you better listen.


I wanna follow the footprints across my lover's stomach
I wanna call out her name before I plummet
I wish I had a map of the terrain so I could step around the landmines,
Avoid the beasts under the bed that bring they bad times
I wanna find this here so-called treasure:
The pleasure, the trinkets, the never-ending weekends
Acknowledging that I'm still just a piece of the sequence
But seeing this different footprints got me needin' to show my weakness
Timelines, the time zones
I cross them with my eyes closed
Memorize the landmarks and learn the cycles
The weather patterns how the seasons affect
The east and the west of each region learn the cycles
Forget about the fact that
Many trails have been tracked
Maybe it's a plus that there's a path
If this was some uncharted land I'd have to be a smarter man
Willing to travel the farthest to unravel the harvest
The natural resources are unlimited
Exploration only requires some desire and initiative
Take your time and find the right way to climb
It ain't safe to play games with natures mind.


Remember that time that I made you so mad
Last week right ha ha you know that
It's not like it's all that rare
So put it here and let me cherish the embarrassment
I realize I've been a dick head yes
And I respect how you question your investments
I take the plane but it ain't to be impressive
It feels like a cop out to label it lessons
I've been though the rain but
I've put other people through a hurricane just to work the game
Sometimes I swim through so much shame.
And here you are right in front of me
offering it all like tell me what you want from me
I wanna love you today and forever
Let me clear my throat and rub my wings together.
you're the most beautiful thing I've seen
Enticing, exciting
Even the sound of your voice gotta nice ring
Ya seem like the type that might help me tighten up my pipe dreams
We can keep digging through this dirt
Team up, you and I against the universe
Think about it, What cha say to your self
You can wear my cape and I can play with your belt
The truth is there now
Stand with me, look into that mirror now
And tell me you don't see the same image
Gonna be a brand name babe once the rain is finished.
I can't believe she got me on a ball and chain
It's not a complaint, I appreciate it
For all the dumb mistakes I make
I'm surprised baby girl ain't threw me away
I never meant to hurt no one,
I just want to stay productive till the work is done
I dance to a certain drum, but when I fell off beat
you didn't turn and run, no
You see me at my lowest moments
You gave me sight when I had broken focus
With a smile that opens up like a rose does
Even when it all seemed so fucking hopeless
And here you are right in front of me
Offering it all like tell me what you want from me
I want to thank you today and forever.


And all we ever did was kiss, no sex
But in our defense, there was never any stress.
On the phone late at night when I'm supposed to be in bed
Mama doesn't know I'm talking to Nick (;
I had a lot of sweet nothing to say
You could say a whole lot of nothing has changed to this day.
There used to a be a fear and a nervousness
But back then it wasn't cause of domestic disturbances
It used to just hurt your heart
But now it's not enough until it rips the universe apart
Got to see a lot of love when I was a kid
Heartbreak made me wanna die but I never did


Hey lady, I don't mean to be so forward
But I got no other choice, soon I'll be across the border
Tourmode, I'm leavin' in the AM
But I wanna spend this evening breathing in your fragrance
Too long since I've seen my better half
Sometimes you gotta let go, close your eyes and let it crash
Road to life is the only one I have to give
Lonely isn't a strong enough adjective
To describe all those nights that I've tried to grip tight
I lack the necessary tools to help me get right
So take your as the temporary savior
While I'm looking at your face like I'll be tested on it later
I bet you like to fuck, but you love to argue
Poke a hole into my chest and pull my heart thru
Up to my room for cigarettes and cartoons
Or we could sit right here and try to guard these barstools
I'll take you anyway that I can have you
Bring along your ethics and your issues and your taboos
It's not the standard free bird situation
But your talking to these pieces of a man whose trying to make it
Through the puzzles, travels, struggles, battles
The body pillow pimp trying to snuggle with my shadow
We could stay proper keep the clothes on, no pressure
Just hold me and pretend like you've known me forever
Won't ya.. be my woman tonight


Interpret the eyes, read the lines on her face
The sunshine is fake, how much time did I waste?
Fuck you Lucy for leaving me
Fuck you Lucy for not needing me
I wanna say fuck you because I still love you.



And love isn't love if you didn't hurt someone



Sunday, July 02, 2006

Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything.
-Muhammad Ali

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Words can`t say this. The one word love means too little for what it is. It means everything and that is still not enough. It doesn't communicate even a fraction of the feelings involved. Love. The word is not enough for what it is. Love.
-James Frey

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You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced, its like no matter what you did, it wasn't enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again, doesn't seem to work. And you're suddenly left thinking that you'll never be enough. And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves.

-Joanne Golden

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A relationship is like a rose. How long it lasts, no one knows ; Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last ; To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die ; You hope you've found that special rose, 'Cause you love and care for the one you chose.
-Rob Cella

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Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed, but sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it, hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it, and life always makes more.
                                           - Grey's Anatomy

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Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting that some things just weren't meant to be. Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, we must fail in order to know, sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears.. and sometimes, the people who you thought you knew start becoming the strangers you never wanted to know.

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Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy.. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

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As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

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It's not because I don't care, because I do care what you think about me, I do. Care. I just can't tell you what you wanna hear. Which seems to be a theme in my life right now. Just because you can't say something doesn't mean you don't want to, you can want to very much. You can be with a person and be happy with them and not love them. And you can love somebody and not want to be with them. You don't need to love someone to want them. Now that's frustrating, when what your brain tells you you want and what you actually want don't match up. Its exhausting. And, well, its complicated. But that's life.


Who I'd like to meet:

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Someone who will always be there for me even when the whole world is against me.



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